Once again its been awhile since I've been here...
Some of you know I'm dealing with some health issues. About a month ago things got much worse. Treatment needed to become aggressive and I needed time to process it all. I've been reading some but in a way I feel numb. Sometimes just the basic tasks of making it through the day are exhausting. Add two little ones to the mix and it becomes all consuming.
As time goes on I'm adjusting to this new life. Trying to accept that it is what it is despite all my life plans. You wouldn't understand unless you've been there I guess. At least I wouldn't have. But its as if I'm grieving the person I used to be.
I am very blessed and grateful that the condition isn't typically fatal but even so I can't help asking why me....
As I try to normalize life as much as possible, I find myself back here. In this group of like minded people wanting to write again, although I will not be making any more promises or predictions of when I will be here.
Due to sickness DD is in the shadows for now. None of this is easy for Jordan either but he has been there for me in whatever way I need him to be and I love him for that.
To bring a little excitement back into our lives Jordan broke out his belt last week. I've always been afraid to try it. Always thought it would hurt too much but he reassured me that we would be playing for pleasure.. not pain. I must admit that I was amazed at the pleasure a belt can bring. It has brought us both pleasure and stress relief along with that closeness that only TTWD brings. I think is belt may just be one of my new favorites :)
We are looking forward to a fun filled Halloween weekend. I wish you all a happy and safe Spank I mean Trick or Treat:)-
