M is for Moody

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Lately it seems I've been a bit...

 

Not necessarily that uncommon for myself or anyone for that matter but due to chronic pain and some of my medications my mood seems to change frequently these days. Sometimes rapidly.

 

 

Sometimes is seems as though Jordan is looking at me trying to

 determine exactly which mood I'm in at the time.

 

My goal is to be happy calm collected wife and mommy.

 

But sometimes I'm....

Flustered and overwhelmed

 

Tired

 

 

Sad

 

 

Angry

 

 

Or in pain wife and mommy

 

 

 

Jordan has done very well being patient and understanding about the mood swings. He tries to bring my mood to my attention if it isn't a good one. Sometimes I am able to fix it on my own and sometimes I need his help. What kind of help is a tricky thing to figure out but we are trying. Sometimes it's a hug and some reassuring words. Sometimes it's go lay down for an hour. Sometimes it's some in the moment bend over bare bottom quick swats. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't but no matter the case, I appreciate him helping me be the happy, calm, collected wife and mommy I strive to be <3

 

 





 

 

L is for... LOVE

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an intense feeling of deep affection 

 

 

 

 Once upon a time I believed love was a feeling. Jordan is my high school sweat heart; my one and only love. We met and were inseparable from the very start.  I was 17 and he was 6 years older. We spent every possible moment together. I had an indescribable feeling when he was around and an eagerness to be near him when we were apart.

 

At some point early on in our relationship I mentioned those feelings to Jordan and he wisely told me that those feelings are "new love".  He warned me they would fade.

 

Surprisingly Jordan and I maintained our "in love" feelings for over 7 years. I never lost the feeling until sometime after we had our two children 18 months apart.

 

I didn't feel out of love. We just sort of lost each other. I was so overwhelmed being a new mom and working that it wasn't that tragic for me necessarily but it was for Jordan. He felt alone. He fell out of love and he decided we needed to separate.

 

You can read more about our journey in my upcoming book Savannah's Surrender, but the purpose of this post is to share a very hard lesson we learned.

 

Love is a choice not a feeling. Thankfully during this awful time in our lives we turned to our faith. Our pastor was very supportive and had seen what was happening to us happen to many many couples before and I'm positive many more since.

He taught us that very important lesson along with what God intended marriage to look like and the roles of husbands and wives in a Godly marriage. He even introduced us to the Domestic Discipline concept.

We owe the success of our marriage to him and we will be forever thankful for that.

Domestic Discipline reignited many of those "in love" feelings and from time to time it sets a flame beneath us but at times even now... love continues to be a choice. A hard choice some days.

 

 

Some days love even hurts. For me Jordan is the one worth suffering for. I am eternally grateful that we didn't choose the path of divorce that so many do these days because although we could probably find that "new love" feeling we all long for until we learned that real love is a choice... that "In love" feeling would never last.  

 

 



 

K is for knees

Knees

 

Just kidding :)~

I was thinking more like "Get on your knees."

 

 

For Jordan and I, oral sex plays a major part of our TTWD dynamic. After a spanking I often "thank" Jordan orally and often times we end up making love. Kneeling before him and pleasuring him is a gift of my submission. Sometimes he will spank...

Then order me to "get on my knees."

And others... I kneel before him post spanking naturally.

 

This is a funny e-card Jordan text me once upon a time when we were unable to have intercourse:)-

 

My favorite BJ post I've ever done is this one: http://lillyannarosesubmits.blogspot.com/2014/10/will-they-ever-understand-just-how-much.html

 

Does performing oral sex play a part in your dynamic?

Does it put you in a submissive mindset?

 

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J is for Just Do As You're Told...

 

 Just do as you're told is one of Jordan's favorite bossy things to say.

If I'm angry it really irks me! But most of the time it is said playfully.

 

Possibly what he is thinking but he is never that harsh lol :)~

 

 

If it's serious it often looks something like this... Jordan lecturing,

beside himself with why we are having the same issues

over and over and me with my angry tuff girl

stance. Pretty comical when you sit down and try to put the situation into words.

 

 

This is one of Jordan's favorites during his lecturing and many

 times during an actual punishment spanking.

 

 

I always get a giggle out of this when I see it :)~

 

What is your HOH's saying?

 

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I is for Implements

Implements:any physical item that can be used to achieve a goal.

Spanking Implements:any object used to strike the spankee's buttocks. Some are exclusively manufactured for this purpose, such as a cane, flogger or punishment paddle. Improvised household items, such as a hairbrush, leather belt or ruler, are also frequently used for spanking.

Yikes!!!

 

My favorite implement is Jordan's hand :)

 

 

Believe me when I tell you though... he can make a hand spanking very painful when he wants to!

 

My least favorite spanking implement is the tilt wand AKA Twister :/

 

 

Some other implements in our 'arse'sonal are....

 

The leather paddle. My 1st choice of implement next to Jordan's hand :) It can be used to create a nice warm sting for Good Girl spankings or it can be applied with extra force and create a red hot punished bottom.

 

 

 This picture was taken after a firm application of the leather paddle!

 

 

The "Paddle Ball"

 

I picked this up at the dollar store one day. It creates a very intense surface sting!

 

The wooden spoon

 

 

 

The wooden spoon is a very common implement. We used it often in the beginning of DD but we don't use it often anymore because it usually bruises me pretty bad.

 

My hairbrush

 

Jordan occasionally will spank with my hairbrush. It creates a deep pain and it is difficult for me to tolerate. So, if the brush comes out, Jordan means business!

 

 

A whip

 

This is a play toy that we have had for years way before DD. It comes out during play time or when I'm getting a nice massage. I love the sting it creates but it isn't really punishment material.

 

 

 

A nonspanking implement that Jordan is fond of is our plug.

 

 

Thankfully it is small! Anal play/punishments is something that was most certainly on my NO WAY list before DD. DD has helped me learn to enjoy sex (I was brought up being taught sex was dirty) and become more adventurous. The plug has a way of creating instant submissiveness! It is used for punishment and play and either way it really pushes my limits and makes things more intense.

 

 

What is your favorite least favorite implement?

 

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H is for...

 

 

 

 

 



Honesty:  refers to a facet of moral character and connotes positive and virtuous attributes such as integrity, truthfulness, and straightforwardness, including straightforwardness of conduct, along with the absence of lying, cheating, theft, etc. Furthermore, honesty means being trustworthy, loyal, fair, and sincere.

 

I believe honesty is essential to any marriage with or without domestic discipline. I will admit that prior to DD I often withheld information from Jordan. I would be deceitful about how much money I spent shopping or if I loaned someone money. That kind of thing. Jordan and I have always maintained our own separate accounts so keeping those secrets was not difficult. A few times somehow Jordan discovered my dishonesty and it caused some major arguments between us. Jordan has had his fair share of secrets too.

While we were coming to our DD agreement we discussed honesty in depth and we were both in agreement that for things between us to get better we had to commit to being completely honest 100% of the time.

This is the section of our DD contract that addresses honesty:

    Dishonesty: No LYING or any form of dishonest communication or behavior. No withholding information from HOH.

 

 

 

     There have been a couple times since we began DD that I have been tempted to withhold information from Jordan basically because I knew he would be disappointed in whatever decision I had made and I didn't want to be punished. Thankfully Jordan is okay with me texting him or sending him an email when I need to tell him something that is hard for me to say in person. Being able to write what I need to say truly makes being honest much easier for me. It enables me to say everything I need to say without interruption. I am much better at communicating that way. I shut down when I'm scared to say something in person. Jordan reads what I have sent and makes his decision about how to handle it from there. Sometimes he spanks and sometimes after I have explained myself, he just talks to me about it. I am very grateful that Jordan is fair with his punishments.

 

      Our DD contract only specifies rules and consequences for me. It does not contain rules for Jordan but I am comfortable knowing that Jordan feels accountable to God to maintain his honesty and knowing how strongly he believes in leading a Godly life I have complete trust in him. 

 

 

 

There are many forms of dishonesty out there.

How does honesty fit into your DD / TTWD agreement?

Do you struggle with being truthful when you know telling the truth will get you punished?

 

 

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G is for...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Top Definition 
good girl: A bad girl that has never been caught.

 

I'm sure it will sound childish, but I love it when Jordan says Good Girl to me : )~ Especially if we are having some rough playtime.

 

 

Enjoy a sneak peek of a "good girl" scene, from my upcoming book Savannah's Surrender (Name change from To Love Honor and Obey...?)

 

Instead of pain I felt Hilton’s hand rest softly on my hot bottom and the cool leather of the belt resting against my nether lips. I relaxed when I felt the light stings of the belt gently slapping against my seeping pussy. Hilton tapped the leather gently all over  my lips while occasionally taping the belt against my bottom hole. I never imagined a belt could bring such incredible pleasure. I liked the feeling of the stings against my privates and I raised my bottom giving Hilton better access. “Good girl, I’m glad you like that,” he praised me. I liked him calling me a good girl.

 

 

What do you like to hear your Top say?

 

Hmmm... :)~

 

 

That's a good one 8)

 

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