Thursday, October 29, 2015

Life Happens...

Once again its been awhile since I've been here...

Some of you know I'm dealing with some health issues. About a month ago things got much worse. Treatment needed to become aggressive and I needed time to process it all. I've been reading some but in a way I feel numb. Sometimes just the basic tasks of making it through the day are exhausting. Add two little ones to the mix and it becomes all consuming. 

As time goes on I'm adjusting to this new life. Trying to accept that it is what it is despite all my life plans. You wouldn't understand unless you've been there I guess. At least I wouldn't have. But its as if I'm grieving the person I used to be. 

I am very blessed and grateful that the condition isn't typically fatal but even so I can't help asking why me....

As I try to normalize life as much as possible, I find myself back here. In this group of like minded people wanting to write again, although I will not be making any more promises or predictions of when I will be here.

Due to sickness DD is in the shadows for now. None of this is easy for Jordan either but he has been there for me in whatever way I need him to be and I love him for that. 

To bring a little excitement back into our lives Jordan broke out his belt last week. I've always been afraid to try it. Always thought it would hurt too much but he reassured me that we would be playing for pleasure.. not pain. I must admit that I was amazed at the pleasure a belt can bring. It has brought us both pleasure and stress relief along with that closeness that only TTWD brings. I think is belt may just be one of my new favorites :)

We are looking forward to a fun filled Halloween weekend. I wish you all a happy and safe Spank I mean Trick or Treat:)-


  1. Hi Lillyanna, I am sorry about your health issues and hope you are much better again soon. Great that you had such a wonderful time with the belt; I can see how it has made its way up in being more of a favourite, done the right way implements can work so much magic. :) Wishing you a speedy recovery.



  2. Hi Lillyana, I'm so sorry to hear about your health issues. Sending you positive thoughts and prayers and hope you are feeling much better soon. I'm glad Jordan has been there for you and that you had some fun with the belt. It can definitely either be very yummy or awful, depending on how it is used.

    Hope you are having a great Halloween weekend.


  3. Im so sorry to hear about the health issues. I'm sending lots and lots of positive thoughts and will be praying for you as well. I'm glad he's there for you, and I'm glad you had some fun with the belt! ;)

  4. Life throws those damn wrenches in when no-one invited them! Although it is difficult, you are still able to see the small blessings in this crappy situation. Things are slowly improving and I very much hope that continues for you!!! Also, happy to hear that your playful belting time was terrific for you both. Thinking of you and sending some healing vibes your way.
    XOXO Pearl