Wednesday, July 9, 2014
First I want to thank all of you who welcomed me to the world of blogging:) I am excited that my blog has reached over 120 hits. Pretty exciting! I have also enjoyed reading many of your blogs too and have done my best to say hello and introduce myself.
As far as DD goes things are “status quo”. I haven’t been feeling well (I have a chronic autoimmune disease) and that kind of puts things on hold for Jordan. Sometimes when I am sick is when I feel like I really need DD the most! It isn’t easy to maintain a submissive mind set and positive attitude when you’re experiencing a lot of pain. Unfortunately, Jordan usually ends up taking the brunt of my frustration. Sometimes I lose my patience with my kids which I feel super bad about: / So those are instances where I wish Jordan would step in and “help” me cope better with the pain and not feeling well. He disagrees though.
So, thankfully I am feeling better and I text Jordan if we could reconnect last night with some maintenance and some play time. He didn’t respond:| We did get a chance to reconnect last night though. We watched a movie together (Blended, it was a cute movie) and then reconnected romantically <3 It was wonderful of course but I was a little disappointed that we didn’t get back on track with DD.
I even broke a “rule” last night. Jordan scolded our son. He cried (he is very sensitive) and I got upset with Jordan for making him cry. I told him he should have used a softer tone… No punishment just a scolding for myself for interfering with his parenting.
I really need to accept that Jordan gets to decide when to spank and when and if he wishes to punish. Easier said than done!