Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Secret "Code" Phrases

Last evening we were outside hanging out with the kids. Jordan asked told me to do something. I thought it was something he should have just done himself and I mumbled under my breath as I walked away...

Jordan: "Lillyanna come here!"

Lilly walks slowly back towards Jordan and stands in front of him.

Jordan: "Did you say we need to go upstairs?"

Lilly: "No Sir"

Jordan: "Oh that's what I thought because I'd be happy to take you up there."

Lilly walks away and does what he asked her to do in the first place.

So many thoughts go through my head in this very quick couple of sentences.

#1. I feel annoyed about what Jordan told me to do. I'm annoyed because I believe it is just a test. A test of my submission, he told me to do it just to see what I would do.

#2. I fail the test miserably by doing what he asked but with a major attitude.

#3. Jordan calls me back to him.

#4. My heart sinks. I think I am in big trouble!

#5. Jordan gives me a chance to change my attitude.

#6. I am relieved that I haven't already earned a punishment spanking.

#7. I think about what happened last time Jordan sent me upstairs....

I was washing dishes and arguing with Jordan. The kids were in the playroom. Jordan came up behind me and puts his arms around me and whispered in my ear. I tried to resist but it is unsuccessful. Jordan whispered "Lillyanna Rose(as soon as he calls me that I know I'm in trouble)... I want you to go upstairs in our bedroom. Bare you bottom and stand in the corner. While you are standing there I want you to think about what you could have done differently that wouldn't have resulted in this spanking you are going to get."

I don't dare defy Jordan. I have already learned that lesson. He will make it worse! It can always be worse.....
I go to our bedroom bare my bottom and stand in the corner. Forehead touching the wall, legs spread a little more than shoulder apart, hands clasped at the small of my back and bottom stuck out. Just like Jordan had taught me.

While I stand there I think about a lot of things. It feels like forever. For one I think about how this has never happened before. Jordan saves punishments for after the kids are in bed. What will he do with the kids when he is upstairs spanking me? I also think about how he will spank me and what he might use to do it with. Last I think about how I wish I had responded to Jordan respectfully... How I wish I wasn't standing in this corner.

Jordan enters the room and sits on the bed. I feel him staring at me standing bare butt. He says "Lillyanna, Do you know why you are being punished?" I don't answer. In a harsher tone Jordan says, "Lillyanna Rose answer me know!!! Why are you being punished?" "Because I spoke to you disrespectfully and with an attitude," I reply. "That's exactly right! Bad choice... Come here Lilly," Jordan grumbles.

I walk to him avoiding eye contact. Jordan stands and positions me leaning over the bed. He warms my bottom quickly with quick sharp spanks with his hand. He stops and rubs and gropes and squeezes my punished cheeks. "I will not tolerate your destructive behavior Lillyanna Rose. I will not hesitate to send you right back upstairs," Jordan scolds. He sends me back to the corner.

I am relieved but surprised that the spanking is over. I stand in the corner. I expect Jordan to go back downstairs but I can feel him staring at me. I can tell that he is on his phone. "I don't know what it is going to take for you to understand that I am serious about this Lilly. When will you learn that I will not hesitate to blister your butt?" I hear Jordan say. He is walking towards me.

I feel the plastic tilt wand across both my hot globes. My cheeks naturally tense and he taps the wand against my thigh and says "do not clench." "10 lashes Lilly count them" Jordan instructs. He starts about 1/3 down my cheeks and brings the wand down across both globes at the same time. I hate the tilt wand! It stings so bad. "One" I count. Jordan continues skillfully down my bottom striking just below the previous lash all the way down my buttocks and upper thighs striping it perfectly. It takes everything in me not to move out of place and continue to count.

It is finally over and Jordan turns me around and hold me tight. He lightly rubs my spanked bottom while he says, "I set the alarm on my phone for fifteen minutes. You will stand in the corner until the timer goes off. Then you will join us down stairs with a better attitude." Jordan swats my bottom and leaves the room.

I complete my corner time thinking about how lucky I am that Jordan and I have adopted this Dd relationship and how in the past we would have carried on this disagreement for days. Not speaking to each other and growing further and further apart. I feel loved and taken care of and submissive. I return downstairs with a different attitude and a plan to "thank" Jordan later that night.

#8 I do the task he asked me to happily without an attitude.

Funny after one time of sending me upstairs... just the threat is enough to correct a bad attitude. I wonder how long it will take until I need a reminder? :)- What "code" phrases does your HOH have for you?


  1. WELL, that doesn't sound at all like a man who isn't dominant Lillyanna! *wink*

  2. Jordan has his moments :)- Does Barney have any "warning" moments?

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    1. Nah= In case you haven't heard, I'm an angel *wink*

      Seriously he just lets things go until I explode most times and then tries to 'fix' things after. He's getting better. It goes in spits and spurts.

    2. Jordan "keeps score" too. I hate for it to have to build up like that. If he would just punish the first time he asks me if I need to be spanked we would be much better off! I guess I could always just say yes... I do need to be spanked but I don't want to have to.

    3. Well it isn't so much that Barney keeps score. He just 'ignores' or maybe comments in a teasing sort of way ( probably testing the water), With me specifically I generally don't snap at him or break rules, until there is a disconnect. THAT is when he decides to step in ( most times). Through communication we are working on 'the tells' that things are slipping away, so that we don't reach these points, but it is VERY slow going. In truth, probably a large part due to me and choosing not to communicate.

  4. Saw your comment on DF's blog about "feeling like you're writing to yourself," so I thought I'd come check you out and leave a comment. I'm also a new blogger, in a DD relationship.

    It sounds like Jordan's warnings are quite effective on you! I get warned that I'm "on thin ice" or "if you keep going down this path, you will be punished." It works...sometimes ;)

  5. Thank's for commenting Autumn:) I get the on thin ice one too. Doesnt have the same effect as "do we need to go upstairs". That means like right then and the last time is fresh in my memory. I'm sure in time I will need a reminder:)~

  6. Wow, it sounds as though Jordan has found his dominant side Lillyana. The most common warning here used to be "we will talk about this". I quickly learnt that by "talk", he meant spank lol


  7. I see the "we will talk about this" a lot around the blog world but it isn't one of Jordan's codes:) And yes he certainly knows how to be dominant when he wants to be! Thanks for commenting Roz.

  8. Sounds like things are falling into place!